At times it feels hard to know how to turn to Christianity in a meaningful way in my life. There were things I learned things as a child that the adult part of me has been at work for decades, clearing out.
Not long ago I was using magic markers and drawing from a younger 7 or 8 year old place in me. Drawing about what I wanted to be when I grew up. I had no idea what would come out. Maybe being a nurse like my cousin, being a helper of some kind or another, a teacher. Being something like that. I drew.
I was surprised that what came out in my drawing was God, Light. Smiles and heart shapes on the chests of the stick figures, arms extended, hands held. Stick people being good and kind. There were nuns. There were heavenly angel kinds of beings. There was witnessing Jesus' suffering.
For long periods in my life I've thrown the whole tradition I grew up with, out the door. I've had no intention of bringing it back.
Yet I acknowledge a younger part of me is still inspired with genuine feelings of love and caring. There's a tenderness in returning to something that I have known for so long.
The image or symbol of Christ might be a way of recognizing something inside our human experience, ever present, that acknowledges our common experiences of suffering and going beyond suffering; a healing presence. A way of embodying our capacities for kindness and service, love, creativity, non-judgment, simplicity, being of the earth.
"Christ is often referred to in the Celtic tradition as the truly natural one. He comes not to make us more than natural or somehow other than natural but to make us truly natural. He comes to restore us to the original root of our being."
~ John Philip Newell, "Christ of the Celts"
Loving others, loving myself
Love your neighbor as yourself.
Loving myself is worthy of as much attention as loving another. When I tend to my own needs in an authentic way I have more to give.
We've been shaped by past circumstances or experiences, including places that Rick Hanson describes as "thin soup," times that our needs weren't met/well. The beauty of our human brain is that we can continue to rewire our brains over our whole lifetime. We can rewire in the feelings of connection we need. We do this in many moments, consciously "nudging" our attention to experience the moments when we genuinely experience connection.
We become who we are through being seen, valued and cared about by others. And by caring for others.
Our younger selves dreamt dreams. They intuited our way of interacting with life as an expression of our deeper selves.
Who did you want to be when you grew up? Something that is flourishing in you now? Maybe something can be revived? Retrieving something lost along the way?
We can feel our aspirations, grieve what isn't possible, make new choices, and continue our journeys.
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